My Foolish Pride
By Tom D Blakely
O Lord! I know myself so well
A sinner only fit for hell.
Some think I am too hard on ‘me’
But what’s inside they cannot see.
Such sin that gathers by the day
For none of it can go away.
The reason Lord, is simply pride
I will not come to You for aid!
I will do anything but pray
I have become the Devil’s prey.
Where is the faith and love I knew?
I’m weak and far away from You!
I read Your Word but it is dry
And we both know the reason why.
O Lord! I write these words to self
But I need You and no one else!
Please Lord, Help me to come to You
My sin has blocked You from my view.
I’m full of anger as You know
Your word says ‘Come’, but I say ‘No’.
I really don’t know what to do?
Because I blame it all on You!
O Lord! You are all that I have
Help me repent and then forgive!
The Devil laughs in victory
For all You let Him do to me…
It seems the truth is coming out
Great Counsellor, I need Your help?
Lord forgive me for my sin
We cannot let the Devil win!
Pent up anger and lack of faith
And daily wishing for my death.
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I can’t believe I thought that way
That I would rather die than pray!
My battle was not with the flesh.
But with an evil so much worse.
I praise You Lord my sins have gone!
No longer will I fight alone.
The Devil would have surely won
He thought He had me on my own.
And now the healing has begun
As love and peace at last return.
To think I took the Devil’s word
And was afraid to seek You Lord!
In future when harsh trials come
Help me remember I can’t win.
In You my Lord, and You alone
Is how each victory is won.
To question You and then to hide
Shows lack of faith and foolish pride.
You are the Lord and You know best
Lord, give me strength to pass each test.
“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities,
against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age,
against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.”